wow!! its been forever

wow! how can i start this.. its been a long time since ive blogged. well lets see what have i been up too, well right now im in school pursuing my degree in Nursing, im currently taking my prerequisite at Merritt College and boy what a new experience im around HELLAH i mean HELLAH young'in and being around them just makes me feel really old. But i gotta do what i gotta do to have a better future for me and Brandon.
for the summer i went to jersey to attend my cousins wedding, during the 4th of july weekend and that was the first time i was away from Brandon that long and boy did i miss the little rascal but at the same time felt nice to have some me time yah know! and also i was happy to see my family and spending time with the cuzins. nothing really exciting happening in my life... i guess thats about it for now.. i have to get back to studying my human anatomy for the real mid-term next week! wish me luck

For My Son Brandon

I had heard of the feelings of a mother for her son
But I never knew what it meant
Until my son, my precious one
As a gift from my God was sent

He was fat and cute, no hair on his head
The first time they brought him to me
I felt such pride my heart nearly burst
For this was my son, Brandon

So much sheer pleasure he has given to me
This sweet little boy of mine
Time passes so fast and yet, seems so short
From birth a year has past and he is going to be one

With hair now so full and light brown and a smile from ear to ear
Two dimples in his cute chubby cheeks
He can melt my heart, fade my temper away
When he gives me his cute little grin

He is so sweet
And so rarely temper is seen
When mischief rises ever so high
In those beautiful big brown eyes

He is my baby and always will be
So much love my family and i give to him
my son, our precious one

I thank God each day for giving him to me
This one hundred percent little boy
Into my life, my son, my most precious one.

ehh...

there's a point in your life when you get tired of

chasing everyone & trying to fix everything. But its not

giving up...its realizing that you dont need certain

people, the bullshit and the drama they bring :)

Time To Wake Up - Laws of Attraction

It's time for the "mainstream" to WAKE UP. The alarm clock is ringing, they keep hitting snooze, and in the meantime, the life they could be living is passing them by.

Day after day, millions of people go through their lives wishing and hoping and dreaming that things could be better, with absolutely no knowledge that it is they themselves that perpetuate their own dissatisfaction.

It is not the "gifted few" who create their realities. It's not just for those in the metaphysical community. It is all of us, every single one. However, there are a few who have awakened to this knowledge, and make creating their reality a daily event...manifesting whatever it is they want in their life with seemingly no effort!

Meanwhile the rest of the world looks on in wonder and disbelief. They assume that these "fortunate few" are among the cosmically lucky.

To be honest, the whole thing generates some anger in me. The problem is that we are "dumbed down" by society throughout our whole lives under the pretense that we are actually being intellectualized. The "scholarly" tell us that metaphysical topics like reality creation are pure fantasy. Science insists on measurable evidence of everything before it will acknowledge such claims as fact.

However, it's really not that difficult to comprehend. Even the most skeptical people should be able to grasp a few simple concepts like:

- Everything in the Universe is composed of Energy, including you and me. Even our thoughts are Energy.

- Through Energy, everything in the Universe is connected.

- The Universe creates without effort, and in abundance. Just look around you. Trees, rocks, air, planets, etc. all were created without stress, effort, or over-analyzation. The Force you choose to believe initiated the creative process doesn't matter. They are all there and were created effortlessly.

- You ARE a part of the Universe and through the power of thought, have the same creative power that manifests everything you see. The only thing that limits your potential is your own belief system!

Everything that occurs in your life is interpreted BY YOU. You add the meaning, you add the emotional response, you add EVERYTHING. It is your thoughts that literally take the energy "data" and transpose it into your reality. What you consider "real" is nothing more than an agreement that you've made with yourself (and no doubt many others in some cases).

This is how our reality has been shaped. This is how we have learned what is possible, and what is impossible. We learned it from OTHER PEOPLE. The problem is these other people (family and friends perhaps?) have their OWN limiting belief systems, which they ALSO consider "real".

So human limitations spread like a virus, and we don't even realize what's happening.

As discouraging as this is, many of us ARE waking up. I personally feel it my sacred duty to shake people out of this "intellectual trance" that limits them and show them what is truly possible.

So what IS the difference between those who cruise through life in a seemingly perpetual state of bliss, with everything they want coming to them with no effort, and the rest of the population working at jobs they hate for the sake of doing the "responsible" thing, hoping that SOME DAY they can live the lives they hope for?

The difference is that these people know their purpose, know WHY they absolutely HAVE to fulfill that purpose, and commit themselves to never stopping until they realize their dream. They may or may not have thrown the accepted definition of "responsibility" out the window. The only thing that matters ultimately is that they now live lives they love, following their passions.

You see it is our PASSIONS in life that tell us precisely what we are to do. When we follow our passions our life lights up. We give off incredibly powerful energy which attracts our desires to us. That means people, money, objects, careers...whatever we want that is in line with our purpose. The Universe WANTS to provide those things we want most. It is only our own limiting belief systems that stop fulfillment from occurring.

sometimes...

"Sometimes we put up walls.

Not to keep people out,

but to see who cares enough

to knock them down."

Forgiveness

Forgiveness is many things, all of which requires action, focus and energy and support on our part. Spend some time reflecting on the following statements which describe forgiveness, and consider how well you are doing in each of these areas...

Forgiveness is a by-product of an ongoing healing process...

Forgiveness ia an internal process...

Forgiveness is a sign of positive self-esteem...

Forgiveness is letting go of the intese emotions attached to incidents from our past...

Forgiveness is recognizing that we no longer need our grudges and resentments, our hatred and self-pitty...

Forgiveness in no longer wanting to punish the people who hurt us...

Forgiveness is accepting that nothing we do to punish then will heal us...

Forgiveness is freeing up and putting to better use the energy once consumed by holding grudges, harboring resentment, and nursing unhealed wounds...

Forgiveness is moving on...

To True, Too Often

Too often we don't realize
What we have until it is gone
Too often we wait too late to say
"I'm sorry - I was wrong."

Sometimes it seems we hurt the ones
We hold dearest to our hearts
And we allow foolish things
To tear our lives apart.

Far too many times we let
Unimportant things into our minds
And then it's usually too late
To see what made us blind.

So be sure that you let people know
How much they mean to you
Take that time to say the words
Before your time is through.

Be sure that you appreciate
Everything you've got
And be thankful for the little things
in life that mean a lot.